I have been thinking about relationships and the lack of I guess maybe because Valentine’s Day is approaching. Well, I think some people have a stigma associated with relationships because they have either been bitter about past relationships or they have never been in one so they choose, instead, to be bitter and not open minded about meeting someone. I do not fall into either of these categories, fortunately. I have no problem being an individual. My life doesn’t start when I have a boyfriend, and I definitely do not need verification of my being from a guy.
But, I LOVE v-day. Why? simply because although it gives me a reason to binge watch romance movies and indulge in heart shaped candy, I like the feeling of being in a world where love actually does exist in all forms – and we have a day dedicated for that. I guess my tradition is to spend every V-day with my mother. I don’t know when that started, and I don’t know when it will end. But, I love it. I do not actively seek a boyfriend in anticipation of Valentine’s Day. Rather, I admire peoples’ relationships with their significant others from afar and I also spend time with my mom, haha. Because I LOVE her.
But – I will admit. I am quite excited to experience an intimate relationship. Not intimate as in sexual. But, I want to get to know someone. kinda like the way I know my best friend so intimately. I know so much about her. Her deep dark secrets, and obviously, perhaps, there is a lot she probably hasn’t told me – which is okay. additionally, i know her fears and her dreams and her flaws and her talents that trump her flaws. It is safe to say that I had to invest in that relationship with my best friend. When am I going to meet a guy to be able to do that with? There is something about males being of the opposite sex that prevents me from getting to know them like I would try to get to know a girl. Either I have not put myself out there enough or the guy I am meant to know has not crossed my path.
But think about it – investing in someone, caring about them, perhaps loving them? well, put aside love for now. but, the reason i am writing about this is because for someone like me who values her alone time and independence, I really cannot imagine having another person to care for in such an intimate way. To mourn when they are mourning. To rejoice when they are happy. To know everything about them, and still want to pursue him/her. The mere fact that there might be someone out there who wants to deeply get to know someone like me is beyond me. WHere are you!??! i’d like to get to know you too- just to see what type of person I would become when I am with you.
have a happy Valentine’s Day :)
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