Fear, Go AWAY.

I have this fear – a fear that this thing I am currently experiencing is only just a phase when I don’t want it to be a phase. This thing in which I wake up in the mornings and crave Jesus, so I open up a Bible. This thing in which I feel His presence all around me all the time. I am feeling protected and a burden is suddenly lifted from my shoulders. Oh my Lord, please do not let this be a phase. On this Feast of the Assumption, allow me to be like Mother Mary every day of my life – faithful. I want to continue seeking You and be happy when I realize again and again that You are within me – always. What do I even need to fear if You are always within me? God You are so so great and all good things come from You. Help me fear no more, for You plan only good things…so why should I fear for my life in which You, Lord, have planned? 

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I hunger to taste life

I feel a sudden ease today. Just read a lot of Ann Voskamp and basically spent the majority of the day with my lovely best friend/soulmate reading a ton of Scripture at Two Story Coffeehouse. We made a new discovery together – we both are in love with Jesus Christ. Why did it take us so long to realize? We felt comfortable around each other doing everything else, but why did we avoid talking about our faith? We both crave living full lives, we both crave salvation and eternal life. She went back to Atlanta and I felt sad, but I felt more happy because I knew our friendship was stronger than ever – so who even cares about distance when Christ is the center of your friendship!? That’s what makes friendship/relationships so strong. 

Before she left, we talked a lot about how hectic the school year is about to be. But, we prayed with each other through reading the Bible. Everything will be okay. And, Ann Voskamp helps a lot. Being thankful gives you time to live in the present. Allow yourself to stop and be thankful for something happening now. Then, you will be rewarded with plenty of time in the midst of your no-time-left basket. We plan on experiencing Grace Midtown together when I make trips back to Atlanta every other weekend now and then. As for me here in Athens, I’m gonna check out Grace Athens for sure! Hopefully, meeting people along the way. I am so excited for everything. for life. I hunger to taste life. God. 

For all the troubled people, here is something to feed your soul with – God has everything under control. Be patient. Joy is always worth the wait. 

thanks for reading, 

a not-so-frenzied-soul-today :) 

 

sleeping alone, but He makes me feel at home.

I am all moved in to my new apartment here in Athens. Not all my roommates are moved in yet, so I’ve been feeling pretty lonely. I think even when they are here, I’ll feel lonely anyway. Why do I feel so alone all the time? because I know I’m not. God will always be with me here. here with me as I study, here as I sleep, and as I type about Him right now.

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I went to mass today at a new church I had never been to before – St. Joseph’s. It was quite lovely! I love waking up and starting my day with Jesus – seriously. It’s a feeling of huge accomplishment. It’s not accomplishment because I got up early and made an effort, but more because I have made it a goal for myself to fall more in love with Jesus, and I know that shouldn’t take effort, but I feel like I need a community. So, therefore, I am exploring several churches of Athens this year – even non-Catholic ones. I want to meet people more like me, more open to talking about the Lord Our Savior. He can seriously be a true source of happiness for any lost souls out there. Speaking of happiness, I have read a couple chapters of Ann Voskamp’s “A Thousand Gifts”, and she is quite brilliant. 

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There I am in my new bed reading Ann’s brilliant words. ^

She talks about how happiness can be found through gratitude and thanksgiving. Be thankful for all that you have – that’s the main thing I have learned so far. She has begun to create a list of a thousand gifts. Hence, the title of the book. It’s really beautiful. This book is digging deep into my soul. Opening my eyes to things I took for granted. Realizing all the things in front of me are all the things I’ll ever need, and actually MORE than I need. So, I thank you, God, so so much. You are the true source of my happiness. I only pray that I can get rid of the desires I have for unnecessary things – perhaps things that would make me appear more attractive or whatever. I want to completely lose myself in Jesus Christ. I really hope I am on the right track. 

 

So, after church today, I decorated my bedroom a little bit more. My friend helped me put together a bookcase, which is looking quite lovely. I am slowly feeling at home. I am also quickly learning to love being alone with the presence of Jesus Christ all around me. He is all I ever need, anyway. 

Here is another glimpse of my abode: 

 

 

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Thanks for reading bloggers, 

a frenzied soul 

Here I Gooooooo

Tomorrow, I depart the righteous city of Atlanta and make my way to the eclectic Athens, GA! I am about to embark on a journey called sophomore year of college. My summer was not too eventful, interestingly enough…I guess, except for the last 3-4 weeks of it. Because of the past 4 weeks, I feel like my second year of college is going to be tremendously different in the most beautiful way. I am ready to get out there and meet more people like myself. It is something I need, and God knows my heart desires meeting people I can truly connect with. So, I really believe the Lord will make it happen. 

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I just…I don’t know…I feel so confident going into the year! I feel so full of love and strength (all from God, of course). And now, I am a little nervous. Because I know that along with every other college student, I am going to have stressful times and so many things won’t work out the way I want them to. Note to self: God’s plan is much bigger and better than mine/ my life has purpose/ I am on a journey that will never end, and I. absolutely. love. it. 

Let sophomore year commence! 

thanks for reading, 

a frenzied soul 

For You Are With Me

My senior year of high school, we had to read “Yes or No? Straight Answers to Tough Questions About Christianity.” And thank goodness this book was forced upon us. It is so simple and easy to read. And honestly, easy to understand. While I know it is wrong to say sometimes it is hard to believe in God because of all the evil in the world, this book makes it easy. Yes, evil exists. God did not create it. God created everything. There is the dilemma. But, isn’t there so much beauty behind this mystery? Didn’t God tell us not to doubt Him? We put our faith in something we cannot see or hear. Yet, we do see it. We do hear it. and we feel it, and we touch it. God is all around us. God is the sound of birds chirping in the morning. God is waking up to our lovely families, wives, husbands, kids, friends, etc. He has created all that goodness. The Argument of Wonder and Aesthetics is personally my favorite because I am a fan of art, nature, music, etc. Experiencing those things allows me to believe. I look at a sunset, and I think “Wow, there must be a God.” See, the thing is he is revealing Himself to us through these natural forms – these things we can see and hear and experience and feel something for. 

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God is so great for giving us those things. This is a simple post for today, but the point of it is to share that while there are other arguments FOR the existence of God, this is my favorite one to refer to whenever I am feeling skeptical. It is the reason people say “God is so good.” 

He is so so good, and it makes me sad that we all fail Him everyday. But, that is a post for another day, or night. For now, let us be grateful for all the things He has created. 

Thanks for reading, 

a frenzied soul 

 

Cafe with a friend

 

 

I love best friends.

I love cafes.

I love cafes + best friends.

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My best friend snapped this picture of me while we sat and drank at Cafe Intermezzo. It’s quite a lovely place. and she’s a pretty special gal. She’s one of those friends who won’t flake, and never disappears. Anytime I need her, she’s definitely there. Das my girl! She’s wild just like me. Our souls are both equally colorful, which is why I think we get along so well.

Badly needed this date with her after work. :)

Thanks for reading,

a frenzied soul

One Last Post About You

Alright, people come and go from your life. But, do they ever stay? I definitely feel like very few people stay. 

Here’s what I would love to say to you if we ever shall meet again: 

Ya know, you were right about what you said – you’re a terrible friend. But, I’m not. I’m a really good friend. I am disappointed in you, but at the same time I really want to say THANK YOU. Thank you for opening my eyes to realizing that I do need God, after all. And I don’t need you. And quite frankly, I don’t want you. I will be a friend for you whenever you decide you want to be friends. But, I would rather you just stay away. Because you toyed with my adolescent girlish feelings. It led me on, seriously! Luckily, I live a simple and stable life, and one little fracture in my soul will not ruin me, whatsoever. You, on the other hand, are unstable and disappear all the time. The reason I am friends with the people I am friends with is because they don’t disappear. They are with me. That’s not a physical “with”. These friends live lightyears away and yet they are capable of being with me. That is the beauty in my friendships with people. Fortunately, I get over things easily. That’s why I am speaking the way I am speaking to you now. I’m not filled with enough anger to go off on you like some crazy emotional girl. 

Allow me to be blatantly honest and vulnerable for two seconds:

Oh how much I would love a friend out of you, and even more so a boyfriend. 

But if you can’t be a friend, you cannot be a boyfriend

I think there is a reason I am so well off alone – I am meant to be happily alone with my frenzied soul. 

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I dare you to pray this.

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Originally posted on Kaelin Edwards:

I was watching a sermon by Rick Warren, and he ended with a powerful prayer. I tried to look it up, but to my surprise, it is no where to be found on the internet. I started to jot down the words he was saying to what I thought would be a short prayer, but it ended up being pretty long. So long in fact that it took me about an hour to write the thing down word for word. I just felt like this prayer is a game changer for those who are brave enough to pray it, it will truly change your walk with God. If you are serious about your walk with God, and are ready to fully pursue Him, I encourage you to pray this:

“The Radical Prayer”

Today I am stepping across the line. I’m tired of waffling, and I’m finished with wavering. I’ve made…

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