I absolutely adore meeting new people, investing in new lives. I cannot fathom what it is about digging deep into someone’s soul and getting to know every dark crevice hidden in them.
Sometimes I wonder why we humans are so quick to judge. Seriously – think about it. Sometimes we are very close-minded. If someone isn’t dressed the way you like or doesn’t talk the way you like or doesn’t believe in the same things as you or blah blah blah, we are so quick to close our hearts to those types of people. Yes, it is true we connect perhaps “faster” with people we share common interests with. But eventually, when we really come to the point in our lives where we are sitting alone in our rooms, contemplating on who we want to be – how can we know who we want to be if we haven’t invested our lives in several others’ lives that are so completely different from us?
Unfortunately, I am guilty of judging too often and too quickly. Who am I, anyway? Do I love myself that much that I should judge others? No, that’s just a prideful issue. I am not prideful, that I know. Here is what I am – I am scared and too comfortable in my current state of being. I seek out people who are just like me, so I can make more cool Christian friends. I sit in my typical spot at a coffee shop and hide in my books/homework anticipating something cool to take place. What am I doing? Okay, wait – studying in coffee shops is a good thing to do, people! Do not get me wrong. I am speaking more personally here. People who feel an undefined emptiness might be blind to the fact that maybe what they’re missing are encounters. We are put on this earth to encounter strange and wonderful things. How boring is life if we just stay in our niche? We can learn so much more about not just ourselves but about this beautiful world we live in. Life is much bigger than hanging out with your usual friends in coffee shops. We are called to be a disturbance to people. For all you Jesus followers out there – Christ is not calling us to just be goody good people and stay relaxed and sip our coffee (sorry, i like coffee a lot, can you tell?) But RATHER Christ wants us to disturb people with His Glory, with His GOOD NEWS.
Back in Jesus’ time, people who followed Jesus were part of the counterculture. They did not fit into society. They were, like I said, a disturbance. So now think about it again – You are meant to be a disturbance – to influence those around you, who are like you and especially those who are UNLIKE you.
I wish I could speak as if i were qualified to speak. But, to be honest with whoever is reading this. I am only a second year in college… I have yet to experience the most gruesome and beautiful moments of my godly life. Perhaps I am in the midst of experiencing it now, sure. But…I feel too comfortable. too too comfortable. I am not spreading Jesus to other people; rather I am sitting in my luxurious shell, cuddling with my bible, writing in my journal, being a typical, brainwashed gal who thinks everything is good because I love Jesus and He loves me. Well, yeah that part is basically true, but a relationship with Christ is NOT always rainbows and butterflies just as any worldly relationship isn’t always pleasant. It is a disturbance, indeed – a relationship with Christ.
I fear what will happen after I finish writing this and finally post it, I will go back to my regular life – doing the things I always do. My boring, routine-filled ways and days. I wish I could continue writing and be content with just that. But, these are just words on a computer screen – so incredibly meaningless. I need to constantly remind myself to be a disturbance and make THAT the meaningful routine of my life.
I would love to see some comments from some of you beautiful strangers and alllll your thoughts :)
Remember – be a disturbance.
Thanks for reading,
a frenzied soul